2009

Wow it's already 2009!! This past year went by so fast. And this year is going to be amazing! I just got engaged on 12/20 and now i have our wedding to plan and that's going to make the year go by so fast. AND most important above all Brian will graduate from school and hopefully be here in JULY for good, then the next time he leaves I will be going with him where ever he gets stationed. This year brings so much change. My brother just moved 7 hours away, my parents are moving, I will be getting married and moving either to Maryland or Hawaii. I love change and this is just an overload of it. Some of it is harder to accept but it's going to be a wonderful new chapter in my life to come and I'm super excited. I'm scared of not knowing but it's something I'm learning to accept in my life. All the unknown of when Brian will be here for sure, not knowing where we will be sent until August or later. Wow. 2008 was a great year, spending time with family, learning more about myself, and of course getting engaged to the LOVE of my LIFE!! :) I can't wait to see what this year brings!!

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SO Brian gets here tomorrow. I'm soo super excited!! It's only been 5 months but it feels like way longer! Like forever and a day! But I am so lucky compared to many girlfriends/boyfriends/wives/husbands of those who serve in the military. Brian isn't somewhere overseas and I never get to talk to him he is only in Cali and I get to talk to him everyday. I'm lucky. But I cant' help but to just whine a little how I haven't seen him in 5 months. I don't know what I would ever do if I had to go longer without seeing him and talking to him everyday. I think I'm a strong person but those who loved ones are overseas fighting and can't talk everyday or see for a year or longer are so much stronger and I look up to them so much for what they go through everyday.

But he does get here tomorrow and I'm filled so so so so much excitement and I know everyone will probably want to kill me all day tomorrow but it's ok. I have tried and warned everyone so I hope they realize how excited I'm going to be. He is the man of my dreams and I'm so ready for him to finally get here. I feel like half of me is always missing and the two weeks he is going to be here I'm going to be a whole piece again. AMAZING. I love Brian. ♥♥

Habitat for Humanity

This morning everyone( well just about everyone) I work with we went and helped with Habitat for Humanity. This was the first time I have ever done this and at first I was very worried and had no idea what I might be doing. But it was the most amazing thing I have ever done. I helped paint a mural of cars. At first I looked at the drawing on the wall and was worried I didn't want to mess anything up for this little boy, Joey, I wanted everything to be perfect for him in his new house and room. But it turned out AMAZING!! Joey was happy his mom was happy and I'm just so excited that he has a new home and loves his cars on his wall. I can not wait to participate in another one!

Strep.

So my body decided to get sick. It was horrible.. I found out I had strep. The worst thing in the world for me. I can never get rid of it and have it for several months at a time, but thankfully it's going away. OH i hate being sick.

The Night Before Thanksgiving

Well so I went over to hang out with my family and grandma, my mom, and I started drinking Hellfires.. If you haven't ever had one you should they are amazing. So we stayed around the house drank hellfire and played Phase 10 it was a great combination.. Lol! So eventually I had my sister bring me home and I then made two pumpkin pies for Thanksgiving. Oh what an experience. Drunk and making pumpkin pies.. lol :) So i managed to make them only spilled a little of the filling everywhere.

Thanksgiving was amazing I love the food.. oh the ham was amazing. And most of all I got to spend time with my family and that's the most important thing ever to me.

It's been

a while since I did this.. well not to long like a month. So I can not wait until December 19!! My sweetie gets here for two weeks!! about a month until then!! YAY!!! I'm getting so tired of him being so far away!! 9 more months and he will get here for good.. well for good as in 6 months. But still that's exciting to me!! I can not wait!!

My BIRTHDAY..

Ahh it's that time of year again. Most people look forward to their birthday well at least until your like 25 or so then you stop... but geez my birthday's always suck! Never fail something bad happens to me.. This year I thought would be soo very different Brian surprised me with a plane ticket to see him and I have been all kinds of excited.. Well now let me tell you. I got up got ready and went to the airport at 0630 this morning to find out that Travelocity screwed up the reservation and reserved it in Brian's name instead of mine so now no California for me today. What a way to start my birthday weekend. YAY!! my luck of course!! But I guess everything happens for a reason but why to me on my birthday weekend????

Well

it's been several days and a lot has gone on. I have decided I hate wisdom teeth nothing wise about them. Just a pain in the butt!!! Hate them with a passion.. Well I'm counting down the days until my birthday but not because it's my birthday but because my sweetheart surprised me with a plane ticket to go and see him in California that weekend so 9 more days until I leave! YAY!!! I love Cali!! As much as I'm not a big fan of surprises this has been the best surprise I have ever had. His reason for me going out there he wanted me to have the best birthday ever. Which is amazing of him. I have always hated my birthday not because I'm getting older but because something bad always happens, but I have a feeling this year is going to be the best birthday ever! I can not wait!!

Life decisions

I have so much to say right now.. Where to begin right now. My life is just a big mess. I haven't accomplished much since I've graduated and I working so hard at getting it right. And right now I'm just afraid of losing the most important thing in my life. I have a lot I need to do before it would ever be close to right and right now winning the lottery might help some. lol. But right now its all about proving everyone wrong who didn't or doesn't think I can do anything much less do it right. Its like choosing from your love or following a dream which do you do? I'm choosing love its such a hard thing to find now days and I'm so lucky to have found it and my dreams change as much as i do it seems. I know what I'm going to do and I will prove everyone wrong it's what I do best. I like the challenge. These last two days have been so BAD!! Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

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Right now I have so many thoughts in my head it's hard to get them all down and still make sense. I'm always here for my friends and just to hear and see what they are going through with the people that they care about make me feel so lucky that I have Brian in my life. He's the most amazing guy and I could not ask for anything more. I have a friend who is completely hurt by a person they thought they were going to marry and to find out that she was just basically messing with him and was very materialistic and only wanted one thing. And see how others can not survive distance put between them and let a tiny bit of stress ruin what they had. Or to see how others take it for granted when the one you care about is always with you. It kills me. I just feel so blessed of the relationship Brian and I have. We have been doing the whole long distance thing for over a year now and I believe that it has made our relationship so strong. I'm just an extremely lucky girl to have a guy like him.

9/11

Wow, 7 years have already passed since 9/11. It seems like many many years ago. It amazes me how much our lives in America have changed since that day. I don't remember alot from my younger days but this day I remember clearly. 7th grade English class w/ Mrs. Price and my history teacher Mrs. Gabler came running into the class room and was yelling at us to turn the tv on and we did just in time to see the second tower being hit. I just remember sitting there not knowing what to think.

After that sad day, Americans because more patriotic, believed in America more. What has happened to that in the last 7 years? We should not stop being so patriotic just because many years have past since 9/11. We should be united everyday of every year.

Many people dislike Bush for us going to war after this occured but honestly I think it was a good decision. I was reading an article earlier and since that day and our War on Terrorism began there hasn't been a terrorist attack in America in approx. 2,557 days, sounds to me like something is working. Of course I hate hearing about the soldiers dying but they are heroes in my eyes, they died fighting for their country to PROTECT us. It kills me when we have so many protesters fighting against the war and hating the soldiers for doing there job, it's because of those soldiers your hating you can say the stuff you do, it's because of them you have the right to protest. BE THANKFUL. Yes I would love to see the war end but we are helping the people who for so long were being killed by their own.

We in America have so much to be thankful and everybody takes it for granted everyday. We can vote, share our opinon with anybody, we have the right to wear what we want, women we don't have to cover our bodies, we don't have to have arranged marriages, we can vote and that is so much more than the women in the middle east can say.

I guess I just want to say I'm sorry and I pray for everyone that lost a close friend, family member, loved one, teacher or anyone else who lost someone on that sad , horrible day in America's history.
Also I want to thank anyone in the Armed Serivces that has been sent overseas to help fight in this fight that ya'll are my heroes. I'm sorry ya'll don't get the recognition you deserve for all you do through out the entire year.
I am extremely proud of my dad who served in the Air Force for 20 years, your my hero, also my boyfriend who I love more than anything who is currently serving in the Air Force you are also my hero.

Thanks! and God Bless!

People

Why do people do the things they do? How can a person stare you in the eyes and lie? How can they just lead on another person who cares the world about them? How can you never realize when someone isn't right for you?

I see many of my friends and myself feeling this way. I have just come to think that sometimes a person makes some decisions without any thought behind it they just do to do it. It's hard to want to be close with someone when you see people who are supposed to be happily married with kids leave their families for a short period of time and during that time start hating their spouse and fall in "love" with someone else and just give up on their life back home. Scares me completely for the future, just seeing this happen so easily without any thought or concern as to what the consequences will be, not only for them but their spouse and children. People truly amaze me all the time. How can you make a promise to someone and just act like it does not mean anything?

It's just a crazy world we live in.